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wow. I keep going back and reading my last entry and it is so goddamn depressing. My life sucks sometimes. I hope this weekend goes well. Im at school today for a bit. Just took my life science lab exam....think i did pretty well. Not too sure what Im doin yet today. I may go to the beach w/ vlady. If he wants to. Im supposed to hang out w/ mandi n jessie at some point. I'm gonna spend the night at Javis since were going to miami seaquarium manana! Although we were supposed to see fob and cobra but it got postponed, I'm seriously soooo excited. I havent been there since 6th grade. I barely remember it lol. Then tomorrow night we are celebrating mandis birthday. doin a little dinner and some bowling as of right now. Sunday im most likely workin..ive had like the last 3 sundays off tho...so its ok. Monday I find out if I can exempt my math final! ahhh im so excited. Can you believe Amanda, with an A in math?? haha this is my last week of school tho. I have a final on wed, a final on friday. My last final is on monday, unless i have to take my math one. Then.........woop vacation time!!! may 4-may 7 me, javi, ash, denis, michelle, and andrew are headin over to ft myers!! cant wait..me n javi are gonna head up to busch gardens one day, im so excited. my friend katie that goes to ucf is comin down for a week or so....i havent seen her...in i couldnt even tell you how long lol. Then Ill be enjoying my summer for a month or so...workin..at the end of june i start up my summer class, which is my first ed. class, teaching diverse populations. wish me luck! That ends on aug 2 or somethin...ahhh i hate school lol. The i have like 3 weeks to fall begins...my life lol. im always busy....but ive got like..6 months and 25 days or so til im 21 bitchesss! woop!! ok...im sick of typing lol..byeeeeee!
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| Ive discovered the worst feeling in the world. |
[16 Apr 2007|11:34am] |
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Have you ever had to sit and watch the one you love, with the one that they love? My whole entire weekend was spent that way. It was one of the hardest things I had to do in my life. I truly never want to do that again. Ever look he gave him, every time they held hands, held each other, kissed each other, each and every time I felt like i was getting stabbed deeper and deeper.
Overall, this weekend was nice. I got to see and meet some amazing people. I spent a lot of time with Marce and Jay. They are how I got through the weekend. Without them I wouldve been stuck, by myself, alone and crying the entire time. It was weird though. So weird. I just didnt feel comfortable. I did not want to be around him. I hate that I felt like he didnt even care one bit about me or how I felt. He didnt take how anyone felt into consideration before acting on it. He spent more time with his goddamn prick of a boyfriend than with his own brother that he hasnt seen since before he left for Iraq. How the fuck? Was that your goal this weekend? To screw everyone over? Ok, I still had a good time. I honestly didnt spend much time with Javi at all. Most of it was at the party. Ill admit. The party was pretty awesome. Had such a good time. Prob. only because I got sooo fucked up. I needed to be though. After going through what I had the night before, I just couldnt control myself. Alcohol was my rock. Jay was my rock. Stacey was my rock through the party. Sadly she wasnt there with me the whole time. But in a way now i see how he really is. You think he'd try and make me happy, have fun, ask me to join them. But no. He acted as if I wasnt even there most of the time. It hurt. Like hell. I was disrespected more than once. Basically the whole trip. Situation::they got into an argument. he comes to me. hes upset. im there for him no matter what. He is whipped. 20 min later. My "best friend" that knows how I feel, decides to make out with his bf right next to me. As if I wasnt there. What the fuck. That is just disrespectful. If you're going to do that. Go somewhere else. Its like saying fuck you to my face. I really guess he doesnt care. What does he expect me to think at this point? Does he think Im over him just like that? Everything I did this weekend was for him. Not for anyone else. I know I need to do things for me, but i just wanted to make him happy. He told me at the party that he was so happy because I was trying. Yes, I was kind of trying. But he wasnt. He didnt TRY and make me feel comfortable. He didnt try to not do things in front of me. Nothing. Nada.
What am I to do?...
Time for class...Ill finish ranting later.
Deli
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[09 Apr 2007|11:07am] |
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wellllllll!....hmm
today is monday. im at school. bored. writing on here while i should be reading. whats new? yaa so, i am just so looking forward to this weekend. Like....i really am? I dunno. I am so excited to see people, and be with a buncha people that i love and truly care for. Especially those that I havent gotten to see in awhile. Its just gonna be fun to have everyone get dressed up all pretty...and drink all night. It should be a good time. Just one little thing...his man is coming. The man I dont respect, dont care for, dont ever want to see. And Im being put into a terrible situation in which Im basically being forced to spend the weekend with him. I am SO scared. Its not that im scared of him. Fuck that. Hes a dick, or at least he was. Ever since New Years my repsect has gone out the window. Im just scared of how my emotions may take over me. I let it happen so often, but when it comes down to moments like these...I cant control myself, and I just breakdown. Thank god Stacey will be there. I need her. She is going to be my rock this weekend. If she wasnt there, i think that breakdown would happen a lot sooner. I dont want it to happen. I am going to try my best to be the bestest best friend I can be. Hopefully this weekend will lead me to understanding, coping, and being happy for him. He's one of the biggest parts of my life. I cant let something like this tear us apart. it seemed like that was going to happen for a bit. But this past week Ive been happy when im with him. Joking around, acting normal. That is all I can ask for. Im sure thats all he can ask for from me. Going back to how we always were. It'll be okay. It has to be, because there is NO other way. Like he said, we will never be together like that. Im working on getting over it. Im doin really good so far i think. But, this weekend is the test. This is the climax. Can she handle seeing the one she loved, with the one he may potentially love? Its not going to be easy. Life is never easy. Lifes a bitch. Im a betch. I can do it. I have to believe in myself and believe in this friendship. Just be happy. Smile. Try to contain the bitchiness. Be friendly, even though I know Im not gonna like a few people there. AHhhh lol. blah. this is like my freakin therapy. Except no one is talking to me, giving me advice. No one has a clue what to say. Usually when someone says something, it makes it seem worse and I get upset. I dont need that. Not this week. Friday: school. pack. head down to the doubletree. First awkwardness. Memories of our trip last summer. We drank,things happened, intimate things. Im going to be brought back to that, and I dont want to be. Who's sleeping where? this is going to be weird. me,maybe stacey,javi,vlady,louis,christian,marce,jay,jordan, his cousin. We're getting two rooms. Normally I'd sleep next to javi. But thats prob. def not gonna happen. who knows. One thing I am so afraid of. Seeing them kiss, cuddle, anything. Thinking about it right now tears come to my eyes. oh lordie lord. Ok....enough. Im going to stop now. Time to read for class. Wish me luck.....much much good luck.
Deli
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[16 Mar 2007|11:17am] |
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look...see! Im kinda getting the hang of this again...yay haha. well ya...last week i had spring break....wasnt anything special sadly. But its ok...this weekend will make up for it. Today im gonna hang out w/ Javi and get drunk as fuck. With our friends, Bacardi, Parrot Bay, and 1800 of course!!! hahaha...his fam is outta town so we are gonna get fucked up!! cannot wait...feel like im in withdrawl lol. But ya, spring break was chill...worked a lot..went to the beach..saw stacey, had an interesting weekend w/ her lol. Hung out w/ ash a few times. Always nice. Got to hang out w/ michelle too. Shes down for her spring break this week. And of course sam n jason a little bit. I went back to hell this week. Fau lol...im so happy tho, I got an 84 on my film midterm...really proud! Right now im dying of impatience...got out of my lab early and now im waitin til my 12 oclcok class begins..and ends...then the party begins lmao. Manana is St pattys day...i have to work til 6 then head up to deerfield beach w/ javi to meet up for ash's little "surprise" dinner thing lmao. Then we're off to the Howard Johnson for the night! :) love me some hotel nights lol. April is gonna be a really busy month for me. I wanna hit up the Plain White t's concert on the 7th...then the weekend after that I have Javis parents 25th anniversary party. We're gonna spend the weekend at the doubletree stacey mike javi and i stayed at over the summer. AMAZING. that is all. haha. That should be a fun weekend...i get to see marce and jay! so excited. Then the weekend after that is the fallout boy w/ cobra starship showwwwww!! weee!! lovin it. But along w/ all the fun shit its the last month of school...ive got lots of tests and homework and finals to do good on before the term ends. Im kinda stressed because I HAVE to change my major before the class selections begin on April 4...so scared. Im gonna go w/ hospitality. wish me luck. But good news...the weekend after my last week of school...our little group(me ash denis javi michelle and andrew--so far) will be headin over to bonita springs..or ft myers...somewhere over there for a weekend getaway. cant wait. Im also thinking about jobs...i dont know. old navy sucks. im over it. i mean dont get me wrong. I absolutely LOVE my friends there...i mean jessie, mandi, tonya, tiff, adam, renee, nikki, marg..even antwon...id miss them so much. But ive spend a good almost 3 yrs of my life at that place. Its time to move on. Im thinkin about bartending this summer. Money is all that is on my mind. ALrighty...long ass entry lmao!! til next time. xoxo
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| its a goddamn miracle |
[26 Jan 2007|12:08am] |
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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! omg lmao. Im back betchhhhess!! This is so weird! I mean...wut the fuck is livejournal? lol i feel like ever since myspace...my lj has depleted! newho! well...it is now 2007....almost 2 years since ive fucking graduated highschool. i honestly cant believe it. I'm 20 years old now...counting down the days til 21 arrives..literally lol. This last year has been such a rollercoaster ride. Met lots of new people i love....and many that i hate. oh boy. lol. you know that whole idea of "highschool drama" well ya...that shit follows u in LIFE. lmao cuz tho i graduated....drama is still my middle name lmao. ya so im officially a sophomore over at FAU woop. Still workin at shitty old navy. ya. ill update more later! xoxo
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I am so freaking lost right now. I do not know what to think, how to react. Is it wrong that I am furious with her? I cant help but wonder why in the fuck someone who was such a big part of my life for so many years, could just not tell me something like this. Im disappointed, angry, frusturated, saddenned, and somewhat distraught by this situation.
I was best friends with Kelly from the age of 3, to about 13, when she moved to Georiga. That was a really hard time for me because I had just moved out of my neighborhood that I had spent my whole childhood in. Where I had made all my friends and basically grew up. It was hard enough not living down the street from her, but finding out that soon she'd be moving a whole state away, oh man was I in for a shock. We promised to stay best friends forever.
I've seen Kelly about 2 times over the course of the last 6 years or so. Sad isnt it? I know it is my fault too, but it's just really hard. When I did see her, she was different. She was experienced. With many things, which surprised me. I knew deep down that her moving there would ruin her. I really did.
She turned 18 not even two months ago, and as of yesterday, I found out that she is 7 months pregnant.
Why in the fuck am I just finding out now?? How can she just happen to not tell me. Im wondering if she was afraid. Her and I had a lot of difference in opinion over the last years, and maybe she knew that I'd react this way.
She could've had a great life. Maybe she still will, who knows? She is so smart and so talented, but having a child changes everything.
Ok..onto non-depressing stuff.
Rent is out on DVD today!!! I am so thrilled!! That movie is effing amazing. Let me tell you lol. If you havent seen it, go see it! The Fall Out Boy show is now in 2 months and 5 dayssss!!!! hell ya im soo excited to see them. Stacey and I might go see the BEP's in April as well. Spring Break is in less than 2 weeks noww!! Next thursday my accomplice Javi and I will be leaving for North Carolina!!! ahhh finally. Ive been waiting for this trip forever. We're visiting Christy and his brother!! SOO much fun will be had...10 long days ill be gone! Alrighty! Ill miss everyone...have an awesome few weeks!
Thanks to whoever reads this for putting up with my venting, I just had to express how I was feeling. :)
xoxoxo
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| Song from the heart....I cry. |
[09 Nov 2005|12:44pm] |
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This is a song that I actually wrote in my psychology class. I was in a pretty sad mood and felt like writing it out through a song...my first song ever lol...hope you enjoy...although its very emo lol..here we go......
"I Cry"
Awakened in the night
As you run through my mind
The tears fill my eyes
As I contemplate why
Why does this happen to me
Why is this the way it has to be....
Chorus
And I cry
And I hide
Thinking about you
Dreaming about you
And I cry
Hoping for you
Waiting for you
To be mine..
I know you must be the one
We always have so much fun
You are my dream come true
If you only knew
I dont know what to do
What to do without you
Chorus
And I cry
And I hide
Thinking about you
Dreaming about you
And I cry
Hoping for you
Waiting for you
To be mine..
My tears demonstrate
All the love and the hate
Held within my heart
I dont know where to start
Chorus
And I cry
And I hide
Thinking about you
Dreaming about you
And I cry
Hoping for you
Waiting for you
To be mine..
And I love you
I love you
Please be mine
GASP!
Man im nervous. I really like this though, it's truly from my heart and its just...i love it and I hope you do too! xoxo
_Mandy_
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| Another Lost Day |
[17 Oct 2005|02:02pm] |
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Another lost day in the mind of a lover.
This is how I feel each day as I go on with this secret love I have inside for someone so dear to my heart. This person has so much of my heart, and he doesnt even know it. Or does he? I am lost. I am confused. I do not know exactly what to do. I think I should contradict myself. I do know what to do. But I am afraid as usual. That is me. Nervous, sensitive, not confident whatsoever. Happy, funny, and in love. I am so many things. But I do not know how much longer I can hold in my true feelings. It has been too long already. Im just so afraid of the possible consequences. I wish I wasnt so hard on myself. I wish I could be the brave one for once and try and get what I truly want. For once, I just want him to feel the same as I do for him. But as my best friend said "what do you value more is what it comes down to". This is what I have to think about.
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| love ya stacey marie |
[10 Oct 2005|12:38pm] |
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wowowowow. what a lonnnnnng, trecherous week ive had. This is just a post to thank stacey for going with me to our first ballet last night lol..that was interesting haha. And thank you so much for helping us get Javier the ticket to see My Chemical Romance tonight. I still feel bad that you arent able to go, because i feel like this is your thing! But i'll have the best time for ya and ill call you during the show and take a buncha pics if i can! love ya and thanks!
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| I'm sleeping my way out of this oneeeee! |
[19 Sep 2005|02:17pm] |
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WOw lol. Ever since I finally bought the Fall Out Boy cd a few weeks ago, I've found my new obsession! lol I absolutely love it man! its fucking awesome...i love 7 minutes in heaven..and of course our lawyer made of change the name of this song so we wouldnt get sued! lol They are awesome...hopefully stacey and i...maybe Javi too..will be goin to the show in october! it'll kill ass! lol blah ok well i just felt like coming and typing some meaningless bs lol. My weekend wasn't too great...funeral sat. afternoon..work that night. Sunday I did some homework, went to work, and then the best part of my weekend was spent w/ Javi. I lovvvve hangin w/ him. We were gonna go and see a movie, but it was just too much of a hassle so we rented the ring 2, since he hadn't seen it. Of course I was scared just as much this time as i was the 1st lol. blah! We had fun tho..bein scared...it was hilarious when we both screamed..we didnt stop laughin for like 5 min straight! ok wel anyways gotta go to my class soon! lol wow im amazing..at least one post a week so far! ya! lol xoxoxoo
_mandy
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[14 Sep 2005|01:03pm] |
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Wow i am really bored right now. I tried to sleep. Didn't work too well. Blah. If u noticed i only write on this thing when i am bored. haha. stacey..haaaaaaahaaaa lol. I love that. I miss the hot dude..JOE..from outback. He was cool. And HOT. lol. If only he weren't "seeing somebody". He's a butthead. I hate school. With a PASSION. I wish i didn't have to go. It makes me mad knowing i could be at work right now MAKING money, rather than coming here, wasting gas, and payin this shitload of money for classes. Thats stupid. I miss my good paychecks. I get paid tomorrow. My parents were supposed to go away this weekend. But after family issues i dont think that will be happening anymore. Me and Javi were going to go see Emily Rose. But now I'm not sure. I guess we'll see. Ok im bored again! ByeBye! xoxoxo
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[07 Sep 2005|02:19pm] |
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yooooo! wuddup lol. Im just gonna do this updating thing whenever i feel like it as usual lol. It takes me so long to freakin write one so i just don't write until im either really bored, or feeling non-lazy. lol well im not gonna write a lot, I promise. This ones just a quicky lol. School has started, so I'm an official FAU Owl..woohoo..lol. Can't you see my excitement?? Noopperz! I hate school lol. I think its just because im a big big big procrastinator and i have issues with doin my homework ontime..well with actually doing it lol. I'm too damn lazyy and esp. english! I just tried reading this short like 10 page thing we're reading..i stopped after 10 min because it's just so fucking boring, i can't do it! ahh..the paper i wrote last week on Henry Adams...i didn't read one page out of the 30 pg long section. I just bullshitted the whole thing! Well anyways school sucks...but there are loooooootsss of hotties! which is the only thing that keeps me goin lol. I went to my cousins wedding this past weekend..it was nice..good to get away! Staceys birthday is comin up...the big 1-9! yay lol..i dont kno wut to get u still! lol and its freakin 4 days away..ahhh! lol that means my bday is in 2 months and 5 days! woohoo..hmm wut should we do for it? lol and Javi's is in 2 months and 10 days lol. ok time for me to go...see look wut happens..i start writing and i can go on forever! lol ill try to write soon! Im off to my last class of the day!! thank goddddddd! cant wait to be at home...most likely goin 2 the gym tonight w/ michelle! k! love yas! xoxoxoxoxo
*Mandy_Pandy*
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[08 Aug 2005|11:37pm] |
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Oh man.I dont know what to do..or even think right now. These last few weeks have been really hard for me. Some really important people in my life are leaving me, and i feel really broken inside. I know I may sound dumb, but while working at my job, I formed some of the most amazing bonds with so many people. One being my manager Christy. Ever since she started there, she has been the sweetest, most caring person in the world. Just a few weeks ago, I found out the saddest news. Shes leaving. Wednesday is her last day at work. Ever since I found this out my mind has been distraught. Ive just been really depressed and Im deeply saddened. She's moving up to north carolina with her bf. I understand its whats best for her right now and things will finally happen for them, it's just that i truly am going to miss her with all my heart. The past few months her and I have spent together we've became so close, attached at the hip practically. I tell her everything, she tells me everything. Its going to be so hard without her there at work, most of the time she was the only reason I was glad to be there. She's been like a sister to me and i know we will remain friends forever. Javier and I just love her to death. All 3 of us are so close. He and I made a promise to come visit her in NC in a few months. She hasn't left yet, but i cant wait. I'm so glad javi and i are best friends, because without him, I dont know if id be able to make it through such a difficult time. Wednesday night her and I planned a dinner for her, with a few of her fav. associates that were invited. Im excited for it, though it will be bitter sweet. Along with her leaving, 2 of my closest friends at work, Ashlee and Michelle, put in their 2 weeks. I dont know wut ill do w/o them either. Whitney, my other manager, who is like a mom to me, is leaving soon also. I feel like Im gonna be left all alone. Now that they are leaving, there are only a very few amount of people there that i actually care about. With all of this happening, and the start of my college career right around the corner, it seems like the world just wont stop spinning and I cant not cry. Ive been doing a lot of that. Oh well, tomorrow I hope to see stacey and just get all my thoughts together. Wednesday is going to be an extremely hard day for me, so im gonna need tomorrow just to take a breather. Ok well, sorry for venting so much, just had to let it out. Night.
*.Mandy.*
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[19 Jul 2005|03:53pm] |
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Oh man. Once again I've allowed myself not to update my freakin lj for like almost a month! Im so freakin lazy lol. Well for me summer has been actually a lot of fun. I'll start from what i cant remember. I believe I can remember back to..jun 30...pretty good lol..Early that morning Ashlee, Michelle and their friend Heather and I went to deerfield beach. It was pretty nice. Extremely HOT tho. After that we go some lunch at wendys, went home and changed. We met back up at the mall so that we could get our pedicures. I love getting pedi's, they feel so good! I also got a new pretty bathing suit there for the vaca. After that I believe that I went over to Javi's for the night. The next day..dont remember, but that night i do remember haha. Stacey and I decided to go to Macaroni grill for a nice dinner! We definitely enjoyed dinner! haha. As soon as we walked in, 2 gorgeous guys caught our attention. Sadly we didnt actually get to talk to them, just a quick hello, and lots of looks. After being there for like an hour and 1/2, we went over to magnolia to see war of the worlds. On the way..we saw the funniest penis shaped cloud ever!! lol hilarious. So..movie was SOLD OUT!..so we bought tix to the next show and went over to shop at walmart while we waited! I bought a few things for my trip there. I got javi and i a best friend keychain there..it was so cute! We saw the movie..and it was really good! Only a little bit scary. Quickly after we went back to walmart to get myself a dog tag that said mandy pandy lol. I think after that i took her home. I worked sat and sunday i think. Then i had that next week off. Monday was the 4th of july. Stacey came over as usual. She always is at my house for holidays haha. Most of the day we ate good food and hooked up my new printer to my laptop. lol. That night i went and picked up javier to do fireworks with us. Then later on vlady and a few of his friends stopped by to do a few. Overall it was a fun night. I tried to go to bed early because i had to wake up early to leave for vacation. But i didnt finish packin until like 1 lol. I was up at 5 30 and on my way by 6. I had an amazing time. So much fun..our own room..gorgeous hotties..some alcohol lol..lots of shoppin n money spendin..beautiful sand and beach lol..even tho we didnt go on!..lots of shells..unbelieveable sunsets!..yummy dinners lol..and surprisingly..a good tan!.. We had to leave early because of the hurricane. damn u dennis! lol. Got home friday, went to dinner at Olive Garden and got dropped off at home. I stayed home for like 20 min..and needed to see javier lol. I went over to his place and just relaxed and had fun! Well most of my time has been spent with either stacey, javier, ashlee, or michelle lol..or old navy! I recently started my diet once again lol. I will lose weight this time! Michelle and I will be goin 2 the gym a lot more.lol. Wednesday Javi and I had a little reunion/good luck dinner at fridays. He had his interview comin up..and i was startin my diet the next day. It was nice. Thursday I had to get a shot for school..went to breakfast with my mom,picked up avril tix, relaxed, went to weight watchers, and of course i went over to javiers later that night to watch our weekly shows lol. We do that thursdays and sundays lol. Friday i got my AC fixed in my car! yay finally. That night stace and i went to see charlie and the chocolate factory, it was pretty good. Saturday I worked and then Javier came over, and then we went back to his place lol. Sunday, worked, went home and ate dinner, and then who coulda guessed,hung out w/ javi. We went bowling for free! Pizza bowl, 2 hrs free,pizza and soda. Awesome..i won 3 outta 4 games! Then went back 2 his casa to chill. He is my bset friend, and i love him lots! and Stacey, you're my bestest friend lol. Well this week im workin..and wed and thurs. i have orientation for FAU! Omg im so nervous! ahh wish me luck! well this is the longest update everrrrr! haha gotta get ready for work! byebye! xoxo *Mandy*
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Amanda you suck.
♥
Stacey
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| Fun times!! |
[23 Jun 2005|11:46am] |
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Whats up??? Last weekend I had soo much fun! Thursday Javi and I went shopping for the party. Then we went back to his house to wait for Marcello, Jade, & Louis to arrive. They are some awesome people! Friday we went to the beach, and about 5 min. after it started pouring, thundering, lightening, and hailing lol. That was one scary, hot, sticky, and crazy ride home haha. Then after we got back to his house we all went to the pool in the rain lol. It was fun tho. I went home and changed. Went back and ended up just relaxin w/ every1. Saturday was the party day! First I had to work til 3. Then when I got home from running all of my errands, I immediately started getting ready! I finished just on time and got to their house. Most of the guys hadn't even finished getting ready yet, grr! lol Finally we got to the party. I had such an awesome time, the food was great and the dance floor was hot! Our friend Ruth from work came and I had a good time w/ her too! Shes so cool. At the end Javi had to drive her home cuz we didnt trust her to drive. So we went back to his house and jus talked for like 2 hours. Then I had to leave since I had to be at work from 11 to close. After work sunday i went over to Ashlees and we rented movies. It was fun. This week I havent really done too much besides work. Tonight after work I have to head over to Missys house. I spending the weekend there dog and house-sitting...so this should be quite interesting! Well, I'm gonna start cleaning up and washing clothes! xoxo ttyl!
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helllllo there. Hows everyone been so far this summer? Well for me summer started about 3 weeks ago and it's just been so relaxing so far. I had about a week or so off from work, and i just took time to hang out w/ my friends. I went back to work, and it hasn't been too bad. I requested more hours, and asked not to close toooo much, so hopefully I'll be happy with my new schedule. But other than that Ive just been chillin w/ my dear Javi, Vlady, Stacey, and Ashlee. I love hangin out w/ Javi because im tellin u we could sit there and do nothing, and have so much fun lol. We just click like that lol. Stacey just started her new job, so it's starting to get kinda hard to see her. She works mornings/afternoons, and then i work at night. But we can handle anything, right stacey? lol shes practically my sister yo! lol Ashlee is awesome. I always have so much fun w/ her. After work on Monday night we were hungry so we went and got fries and frostees from Wendys and ate in her driveway. We had a nice, long, funny convo. Then yesterday she, her friend Mike, and I went over to some gym and worked out some. Today we are gonna do some shoppin! Im so excited I havent been shopping in forever. I really want a new cell phone, so Im gonna look around for that too. I'm so excited because Ashlee invited me to go w/ her and her family to Ft. Meyers in July, I can't wait! This weekend should be fun. Javi's dad's bday was on Tuesday so his brother is comin down and a bunch of his family. Friday, if its not crappy out,*knock on wood*, I'll be goin to the beach with them. Then Saturday, i work 10-3 and then im off to the partayyy for his Papa. Im excited to meet everyone, his family is so sweet to me! Anyways I'm out for now, shoppin and then I work tonight! xoxoxo
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I cant freakin believe that I can now sit here and say, I'm a JP Taravella High School Graduate Class of 2005!!! omggg it so exciting! I really do feel so accomplished and happy now. I feel like I've done something so awesome and..its just an awesome feeling. Now I can have a huge sigh of relief! These last couple months of high school have been soooo stressful, but it's over now. Last night it was incredibly nerve-wracking prior to walking that stage, but afterwards i was beaming! Besides my yawns of going through each fucking person, I had a big smile on my face! It made me so happy seeing all my friends up on that screen and walking across that stage, its a great moment knowing that we all made it. At the end, I held my tears in so much while we moved our tassels from right to left. Seeing everyone so happy and so done couldnt have been better! I have to say, I think the best part of the night was after when we got into the back at the end, and saw everyone. I just saw people and i couldnt hold in my tears. It was a mix of tears of joy and tears of sadness, knowing that I may not see these people ever again, or even for a long time. I'm so glad that it's over, but Taravella will always be in my heart, and everyone that i've met will always be a part of me. Congratulations Class of 2005, we did it guys, we did it!!!
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| LAST DAY OF SCHOOOOOLLL! |
[25 May 2005|11:30am] |
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omg...i just cant believe. It's over. We are done with high school. Im sad...yet SOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING EXCITED! YAYYAYAY! CONGRATZ CKLASS OF 2005!! XOXOXOXOOX love u guys!! *MUAH*
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| We Belong Together.................. |
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I absolutely love that song, "We Belong Together" by Mariah. To be honest there is a reason why I love that song so much, probably because it's pretty much the way I'm feeling right now towards someone special in my life. Things have still been going very well over all. Besides failing math right now and have a shitload of projects to do, everything surprisingly is pretty damn awesome! For now I can remember back to Thursday, which is pretty bad lol, but oh well, and I dont even remember when the last time i updated was. Well lets see, Thursday was a pretty cool day. Went to school of course, and that was the day of our last pep rally ever. It was a junior/senior pep rally and it wasnt too amazing to be honest, but i guess it was kinda fun. After school Stacey and I went to the mall so i could buy shoes to wear w/ my grad nite outfit. After that we had to go directly back to my house to I could get fitted for my prom dress. Then we decided that we were gonna go out to eat w/ Javi & her friends Steven and Milo. We ended up going to Wings Plus, it was an ok meal, ended up paying way too damn much money. After that stacey went off w/ her boys and Javi and myself went off to mi casa. I wanted to bring him over to meet the one and onlyyyyyyyyyy...*drum roll please*...BROWNIE! It was sooo funny! We walked in and brownie was parking at him for like 5 minutes straight. He didnt like Javi Wavi very much lol. Javi def. liked rocky a lot more. I introduced him to my family, who liked him a lot. I got sick of being at my house so we went back to his and i just chilled there til about 11. We had fun. Friday was the DAY! Grad-FUcking-Nite!!! We had sooooo much fun there it was a great(long)but great night. I will remember it forever. We didnt get back home til about 8am. I pretty much slept all day long. I had plans to chill w/ Vlady, but he was a dickhead and ditched me! grr its ok though, i still love him! Plus he promised me he pay me back, but he won't tell me w/ what or when or nething, and i wanna kno!!! lol. Sunday I worked til about 8 30 and then at 9 or so i went over to Javi's to chill w/ him and Vlady. The point was for him to help me w/ math, but that didnt work out lol. Javi had to nurse my toe because the door hit my nail and it cracked in 1/2! ouchie! It was scary. Anyways, I had sooooo much fun w/ them. They are the best people to be w/ if ur bored cuz 2 seconds after ur w/ them, ur not bored anymore lol. I love those boys to death! Im sad cuz Javi's leaving me for almost a week! Ill be sooo lonely w/o him. So i guess that leaves me w/ Vlady lol. Hopefully him and I will hang out since Javi wont be here. Prom is in 10 days!!! omggg! I cannot fucking wait. It will be amazing, one of the best nights of my life! ok enough updating for now! Gotta go "do work" at the station lol...and hopefully book the fucking limo w/ Javi! xoxoxoxo *Mandy Pandy*
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